Unit 1 Large Essay

Final Product

Write an essay on some of the ways you have discovered who you are. Include at least one key aspect of your physical self, one important relationship to someone else, and your sense of who you are as a student and writer. What are the most essential elements of your identity? What aspects may change? What aspects do you see as permanent?

I am unique. I will never be anybody besides me. I’m a nerd who makes too many Spongebob Squarepants references. I’m an anime geek who needs to focus just a little bit more on important stuff. I’m an artist who draws in my freetime. I’m a person who’s never been in a relationship, but still loves with all my heart. I’m someone who needs to get a job, but a person whom no one calls back. I’m a person who is waiting for a special person to come back home from his Mission. I’m agnostic. I’m happy. I’m the most optimistic person one could meet. I am me and I love that. I would never want to be anybody else.

Through my nineteen years of life experience, I have learned a lot about myself and the way Life enjoys throwing surprises at your face and yelling, “Think fast!” When it’s too late to catch the surprise. I can honestly say, I would have never expected to have fallen for someone who was Mormon (Me! A super agnostic!). I mean, just last year, if someone told me I would be waiting for someone for two years, I would have laughed at them and said, “Yeah, I don’t think so.” But now? That’s a surprise I didn’t expect in the slightest, but something I’m happy for. Plus, he’s the exact opposite of what I thought my “type” was. But, I’m pretty sure most girls dream of a “tall, dark and handsome” kind of guy, while most don’t get that kind of guy.

But that’s okay! Really, when it comes to finding the right guy for you, you should look deeper than his physical appearance. You should look at his likes and dislikes, his personality when he’s around you versus his friends. If something about him clashes too badly with your own personality and neither of you are willing to compromise in some way, then he probably just isn’t the right one for you. Don’t take my words too strongly to heart though, being as I haven’t been in a relationship.

But I do have friends. And I know I’m only supposed to write about one important person, but honestly, my personality was shaped mostly by the people I’m friends with and my family. My friends shaped me into the optimistic person I am today. I mean, most of them were super pessimistic, so I decided, “I don’t want to be like that.” So I became an optimist, because everyone needs some optimism in their life even if they think optimists are naive. And some are, I will admit; I know, though, that the world isn’t perfect in the slightest. I understand that the US is slowly going down the drain, and I know that people like Trump actually exist. I understand this, but I choose to be happy and look on the brighter side of things, because that’s what makes me happy. Stress isn’t my friend, so I avoid him.

My friends have also encouraged my love of drawing. The person I was talking about earlier in this essay told me in an email just a couple weeks ago, when I told him I think I draw too much, that I should, “Draw as much as I want” and to “Take over the world with my drawings.” Over the top, but what else are Theatre kids supposed to do?

Speaking of Theatre though, I used to be a Theatre kid. You probably wouldn’t be able to tell by the way I am, but I was. And let me tell you why. Because I have been on stage my whole life. I wasn’t originally on stage for Theatre though. I was a dancer. I danced up until my sophomore year of High School, so up until three years ago. I quit because I found Theatre. I’m not in Theatre anymore though because I learned that it is incredibly stressful, and as I mentioned earlier, I don’t fare well with stress. So I said no, and decided art was probably my safest route, it hasn’t let me down, and there’s so many different styles to try and play with. It’s definitely one of the aspects of my life and physical being that will not change. I just have this feeling that art will forever be a part of me.

My sense of who I am as a student and a writer is this feeling that I need to achieve as much as possible. This might have something to do with the fact that I am a Virgo (when thinking of personalities based on horoscopes) but I have always felt that if I do something wrong or I can’t do something that seems like it should be simple, then I won’t be good enough. Good enough for what? I don’t know. Here’s an actual dialog between me and my brain though.

Brain: “Do this correctly or you’re gonna fail life.”

Me: “But I have other things I have to do, I can’t waste time on pointless things.”

Brain: “YOU GOTTA!”

Basically, that’s my sense of who I am as a student and writer. If I don’t get straight A’s, I’ll fail life. If I can’t write correctly or perfectly, then what good am I to the world? They’re stupid worries, but I can’t stop worrying about them. But that’s just another part of who I am. I worry about too many things and I won’t deny that, because that is also a part of who I am.

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